Sometimes I feel like all I ever do is run. I find myself running from the time I get up until I go to bed. I feel like I am in a race in which I am always behind. Behind because I started a half hour after everyone else. Every night when I crawl in bed I tell myself that tomorrow is a new day. I will lay in bed and plan out the next day. I will commite to making the next day better. And somedays that works and others it doesn't and once again I will find myself laying in bed telling myself that tomorrow is another day.
So, what does all this have to do with finding peace. Well I've decided for me, I am stuck in a rut. I rut that I chose to put myself in with out really even realizing I was putting myself there. Thats the crazy thing about ruts, most of the time you don't even see it until you are already stuck.
On sunday another mother in my ward, who I thought had it all together got up and bore her testimony. She spoke about just this subject, "Finding Peace" and getting out of that "rut". It was just what I needed to hear. And after pondering sunday and most of the day today I think I have a plan. A plan to start "Finding Peace" knowing that there will be "race days"and I may not find much "Peace". I now realize that sometimes " Peace" is nothing but a brief moment in my day, or that some days its several brief moments. "Peace" for me, from this moment on is going to be laying in bed at the end of everyday and counting all those brief moments and just letting all the rest go because tomorrow really is another day!!
So, what does all this have to do with finding peace. Well I've decided for me, I am stuck in a rut. I rut that I chose to put myself in with out really even realizing I was putting myself there. Thats the crazy thing about ruts, most of the time you don't even see it until you are already stuck.
On sunday another mother in my ward, who I thought had it all together got up and bore her testimony. She spoke about just this subject, "Finding Peace" and getting out of that "rut". It was just what I needed to hear. And after pondering sunday and most of the day today I think I have a plan. A plan to start "Finding Peace" knowing that there will be "race days"and I may not find much "Peace". I now realize that sometimes " Peace" is nothing but a brief moment in my day, or that some days its several brief moments. "Peace" for me, from this moment on is going to be laying in bed at the end of everyday and counting all those brief moments and just letting all the rest go because tomorrow really is another day!!
Very well put... we can only strive to be the best we are on that day and do what we can. There is always tomorrow, if we are lucky, to finish what we could not accomplish today. I love you and am happy you have found some little slice of PEACE!
ReplyDeleteI constantly feel like that. In order for me to feel successful, I think that I must accomplish a certain number of task. If I haven't, I have wasted my day. That is partly true, but there are days that I do good things and still feel it isn't enough. I wish I would stop being so hard on myself and just do and be happy.
ReplyDeleteMelissa, I thought you might enjoy reading this:
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Thanks Sherry! What a great blog. I think that is something I need to try harder to live by and just "let it be"! Thanks for sharing!!
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